i haven't been feeling particularly well lately. quite honestly i've been feeling like crap. i spend a lot of time wishing i was sleeping instead of doing whatever it is that i'm doing, and eating way more than i should be. i'm depressed and i know it and things just seem to keep getting worse and worse. things that are outside my control, but still effect me. i just feel like i'm getting kicked around and beat down. i need a vacation. it's a good thing we're going to portland in a matter of weeks...