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insomnia
last night i got about 4.5 hours of sleep. i went to bed at 8 pm. i laid there until chris came home at 8:30 pm. he asked if i wanted him to make me something to eat, since i hadn't eaten dinner, and i said no. i just wanted to sleep. the night before i'd got less than 6 hours of sleep. so he left and i laid there in the darkness with my eyes closed, trying desperately to relax my body and mind and drift off into happy land. but alas, sleep did not come. chris came to bed around 9:30 pm and i was still awake. at that point i started crying out of frustration. he can fall fast asleep within minutes. i, however, struggle to get a couple hours here and there. 10 pm i gave up on trying to sleep and got out of bed. i sat at my computer playing solitaire until just after midnight. i went back to bed and laid there for what felt like forever. probably somewhere around 1 am i fell asleep, though it was restless sleep. i woke up several times in the night. the alarm went off at 6:30 ish this morning. i was very groggy and my eyes hurt. but i got up and went to the gym anyway.
something's gotta change. i don't know if it's that the bed is uncomfortable, or that i'm stressed, or that i'm not eating right, or what. but i need to sleep. i need to sleep better. i need to stop waking up in the morning not feeling rested. i need to stop waking every hour or so during the night.
some days i feel like i should just stop sleeping. stay up as long as my body wants. if i'm not tired, i'm not tired, and i just won't sleep. maybe if i stay awake for a week straight i'll be able to sleep through the night once. just once...
- Miss Shigatsu @ 02/20/2003 01:03 PM Þ$+ -
I love you
- Chris (Russell Crowe) @ 02/20/2003 01:38 PM Þ$+ -
I didn't post that ... so who is this other Chris?
- Crispin @ 02/20/2003 04:40 PM Þ$+ -
russell crowe
- Miss Shigatsu @ 02/20/2003 04:49 PM Þ$+ -
